King Arthur: Legend of the Sword–Interview with Star

King Arthur: Legend of the Sword, directed by Guy Ritchie, and starring Charlie Hunnam, hits theaters May 12.

Working With Guy Ritchie

Charlie Hunnam: Any time you are going to retell a story that has been told many times before, you have to do something different and make it your own.  And one of the things that Guy had been very eager to do, which I thought was wise, was to make Arthur just an everyman.  You or I or anybody could just be going about their life and then all of a sudden have this grand destiny thrust upon them, and how would we react.  And in the classic hero journey, always this grand destiny is presented, and there’s a reluctance to the call.  And what Guy and I got most excited about in talking about this character, is where that reluctance came from.  And of course if comes down to fear, a sense of inadequacy, or not being able or having the requisite skill set or experience to be able to take on this lofty challenge.  And so that was something I think was really interesting and relatable to everybody, and certainly something that I had spent a lot of my time thinking about.  I have always truly believed that anybody is capable of doing anything, if they just cultivate a robust enough sense of self-belief and know that the journey is going to be difficult and there is going to be failure and you just have to endure that.  And rather than build a wall to protect yourself from the pain that comes with that, actually just say listen, I am going to feel the pain, I am going to learn the lesson and just keep on my journey and ultimately I will arrive at the goal.  So that was sort of an interesting and I think exciting reimagining of Arthur, because traditionally he has always been the noble man on a noble journey to become a noble king, which is great, but it is not that relatable and it doesn’t give the journey as much breadth.

In terms of the dialect and stuff, I always feel, if you are going to adhere to the strict rules of period, then you want period speak, but actually people are just people and if you don’t get too labored in trying to be true to a period, then again I think it’s just a bit more accessible.  And it’s also because Arthur is a bit more rough and ready and because Guy had made that choice to make him a regular man, then we needed that to be reflected in the dialect.

Guy is so infectious in his personality and he is so charismatic and I always feel that Guy’s films are deceptively personal and you wouldn’t necessarily think it because it’s not like he is exploring his deepest, innermost fears and sort of bleeding all over the screen in the way that some of those great directors do.

I got the sense, before I had ever met Guy, that I knew the characters in his films.  And then when I got to know him better, I recognized a lot of the traits of those favorite characters in his films had come directly from Guy. I realized in the early weeks of the film that I was actually just doing my best Guy Ritchie impersonation.  He really informs a lot of the sensibility of the characters that he brings to life.

Ritchie’s Personality and Humor

CH: He’s a rascal with a very robust sense of humor.  And that really informs the whole process.  I tend to have a good sense of humor and have a laugh in my real life, but I have had a tendency in the past to be very earnest and serious about my work and I think Guy recognized that.  He said, here’s the mandate for the film, you and I need to have fun everyday together, because this film needs to be fun and if you and I are making each other laugh and having fun, then that is going to reflect in the film and we are going to make the audience laugh and they are going to have fun.  That was liberating for me, and I must say it was wonderful.  I have had much more fun on this film than I have ever had on anything I have done before.  His humor defuses every tense situation on the set, it informs every decision..  Initially, his intention was to do something that was a bit of departure from his prior work, he wanted to be a bit more linear and classic and have a somber quality to this, but as soon as we started rehearsing, his creative truth took over and he realized that we needed more levity than he intended.

Love Triangle

With Guinevere, it’s a love triangle in the purest sense of the phrase.  It’s one of the most dynamic and exciting parts of the Arthurian legend. We hope that if, obviously the audience decides these things, but if there is an appetite for this film, we are certainly very excited about going on and making some more of them. But what is great about that is that Guinevere is the love of Arthur’s life, and he absolutely adores her, but Lancelot is the second love of his life, sort of the brother he never had and in a way maybe, elements of a father he never had.  Obviously the male dynamics to Arthur are very important.  And so these two people that he loves the most, obviously come together and betray him and obviously that presents the opportunity for great drama.

 Fame and How It Changed You?

CH: I was walking the streets with Guy, he, as I sort of anticipated and hoped, has become a very dear friend of mine and we love to hang out and spend time together.  It’s funny, I have been asked this a lot, it seems that there is some perception that this film is going to make me a much bigger star than I am already, but you know, I never ever personally think about my life and my work in that context.  Everybody has a different journey that leads them to becoming an actor and some people, and I have no judgment on this, some people are seeking fame and fortune, and that’s fine, as long as they back it up with a work ethic and also a desire to do the best work that they can do.  I have never cared about fame at all, I have been, my journey was being a lonely, existential kid who grew up in a very economically depressed place, where everybody was in survival mode, and I recognized the tragedy in that, that people didn’t have the opportunity to bring forth the intention that they had, or the hope that they had for their life.  And I always loved film.  And as a very young boy, preoccupied with this idea that time is so precious and that we only have one life and our only responsibility is to live it as full as we can.  And I identified film as the way that I wanted to spend my life.  I just feel incredibly grateful and lucky to be able to work with people like James Gray and Guy Ritchie and I arrived at a place in my career where I have the opportunity to do the type of movies and the caliber of work that I have always dreamed of.

I also have a whole other theory about having to stay humble and pure in the process, because energetically in the world, I feel like the stories that want to be told, and the universe decides who are going to be the vehicles to tell those stories, and if you stay pure and true, then once in a while the universe will say, alright, it’s your turn, you can go tell this story. But I think staying humble within that is very important. I read a book years ago called “The Five Rings” and it was about a samurai in the end of the samurai tradition in Japan, and he talked a lot about the relationship that a samurai had with his sword, and how a samurai had to sacrifice everything in his life through the sword, and in return, in the moments, that five minutes a year that he had to engage in combat, the sword would return all that sacrifice, and save his life and protect him.  There is something about that energetic relationship that you have to your calling in life that I think needs to remain very pure.  This sounds pretentious as fuck and I am sorry, but it’s my belief.

 Promoting Film in Beijing

CH: I was in Beijing, but I was unfortunately only there for 36 hours, which was odd because it had taken 24 hours to get there and back.  (laughter) I did learn my nickname, Hunan, the emperor of Hunan, which I quite liked, I guess there is the Hunan Province, so that was fun to get a nickname.  I actually was really blown away by China and in particularly the passion and energy around the film business.  It’s a grind the film business in America, which you are all aware of, the industry is shrinking and it’s becoming much more difficult.  And it’s just this sort of challenge every day, this herculean effort to get stories made that you want to get made, and I felt like the opposite was true with China and the industry was exploding and there was such a vitality and excitement and such a forward movement in the business that I found really inspiring and exciting.  And also how young everyone was, they built this absurdly big round table, which is also something that you would never see in the US and the amount of time and resources and effort it took to build this, and it was a round table that sat 100 people, and two giant thrones from myself and Lionel Wigram, the producer of this film that I went with.  But it was amazing to look around our table, and there wasn’t anyone over 25 sitting there.  And it felt like just such a young and fresh industry, so I was excited.  And of course the food was amazing. And I was also very lucky, because there was no smog at all the two days I was there, and apparently it can get pretty grimy, the air quality over there.  But I didn’t experience that at all.

Filmmaking as Adventure and Journey

CH: I have been on this journey in my life and the beginning of my career in film I feel like started when I was six years old, seven years old, watching “Excalibur” over and over again.  It was the first time that I recognized that I saw the process beyond just being told the story and started to get interested in the logistics of filmmaking.  And I remember asking my mom, like what is the process and they find somebody that knows how to swordfight and ride horses, how do they hire actors?  And my mom sort of was baffled and said she had no idea.  But I assumed that they hired someone that has the aesthetic and the essence of the character, and then teach them all of those skills.  And imagine as a six year old kid, I thought wow that is actually a job, to learn how to swordfight and ride horses?  And it really was the moment where I said okay, I am going to spend my life trying to pursue being an actor.  And of course as I was so young, it also informed my play.  And I suppose the early rehearsals was being in the backyard and pretending I was Merlin or pretending I was Arthur.  And so it felt like, it certainly inspired a moment of reflection when I got this role, because I thought, how amazing for this journey to have started for me with King Arthur, and here I am, 30 years later, being hired by one of my favorite directors to play this role. So it certainly felt significant.  And then actually it was interesting to ask those two questions together, because an extension of that is that I have always felt so grateful being exposed to Aidan Gillen as a young man and really my first job was playing his lover in “Queer as Folk” and I worked very closely with him, literally.  (laughter) But being exposed to that level of integrity and discipline and vision for what one wants ones career to be and not compromise in pursuing that, that was the greatest impact on me, the biggest single impact of my career that I can identify, was working with Aidan.  So it was lovely, I was really excited when Guy told me he had hired him and I was going to get to work with him again and just spend time with him and be able to express that to him, this debt of gratitude that I felt to him, and I did explain it to him in probably rather earnest terms, (laughter) and he went yeah, alright.  (laughter) But I think he heard what I was saying.  I actually didn’t think he had heard what I was saying, but I did an interview the other day with The New York Times, and I was discussing this thing with the journalist and she had told me that she had actually called Aidan to get a couple of quotes to bolster the piece, and she said that he had told her of that conversation and that it had actually meant the world to him.  So it was very nice.

Training for Athletic Body

CH: was actually a kind of challenge for me, the physicality, because I was doing the last season of “Sons of Anarchy” when I got hired for this, which actually almost prevented me from getting hired because I don’t know how familiar any of you guys were with that show, but in the last season, the character that I was playing had just had to endure an enormous traumatic event in his life, where his wife had been brutally killed, and for some reason, Kurt didn’t really want to explore the direct aftermath of that, he wanted to cut into the next season like a month after the fact.  And so, emotionally there was no real way to explore the impact that that had had, because by the time we picked up the show, we were already into the narrative for that season.  So I sort of decided that the way that that would demonstrate the hell that he had been through in the month that you hadn’t seen him on screen, was that I would come back as physically wrought that I could, so I lost an enormous amount of weight.  And then, I went and auditioned for Guy halfway through that season and Guy wasn’t familiar with my work at all and in fact, he wasn’t interested in hiring me for this at all, and I had to fight to get in to see him, cause I just felt that he would like each other if we would give me the chance to meet with him.  But he was very concerned about the physicality because I had just showed up like a skeleton, and he said look, he kept saying man, you know, are you sure you can get big?  (laughter) And I literally tried to pull up photographs saying look, this is me, and he went okay, that might be CGI though.  (laughter) Maybe some shading went on there.  (laughter) So it was funny.  And at the moment I got the role, it came directly from that, because we were in the middle of an audition, and he is looking at me on camera and he is saying, are you sure you can put weight on, cause we need Arthur to be formidable.  And I sort of pretended to lose my temper and I said you know what pal?  You want to just cut the camera?  If you are so concerned about the physicality, because there were three or four other big movie stars that were also auditioning for this and I had seen them, the way you sort of awkwardly do, like milling around the corridors of this hotel, (laughter) and I said, why don’t you bring those chimpanzees in here and we will fight, and whoever walks out of this room, is going to get the role?  And I saw Guy with just a little glint in his eye and he thought, that’s the Arthur I am looking for.  And then he said, alright then tough guy, go back and read the scene again.  But that is really I think the moment that I got it.  But to actually answer your question and to not just talk randomly about nonsense, I had to work out very hard and it’s always about getting the right sort of physicality and the physicality itself is really boring, but the psychology that goes with physicality I always found quite interesting and I knew that Guy was going to surround me with formidable people and if you are supposed to be the most formidable in a group of formidable people, you have to be able to believe that psychology.  Because if you don’t believe it and you are acting those scenes, the other people are going to have to be acting, and rather than just believing it.  And so I, as well as lifting a lot of weights, did an enormous amount of fighting, because I wanted to be the tiger and to let everyone know that if it comes down to it, I would whip your ass any day of the week and twice on Sunday.  Very little carbs and no sugar and no dairy are the two big ones for me to put on a lot of muscle and stay lean.

Sexy Image
CH: I have no idea.  I don’t know.  It’s certainly not something that I ever think about or try to cultivate.  I was just born this way and people seem to think that, or certain people think that I am attractive and that’s fine, because it’s a visual medium and people, it’s a real asset, but I don’t put any stock in it.  What’s important to me is trying to be the best actor I can be and improve my skill set.  And my aspiration for my whole career is that every performance be better than the last and to learn everything I can, because acting is just a craft like anything else, like being a carpenter and I certainly, as you guys have seen, was not born the best actor in the world.  But, I am very, very committed to becoming hopefully one of the best actors around and so I really apply myself and try to learn and grow as much as I can.

Royal Quality

In this chapter of the story for Arthur, I wasn’t required to channel any inner King or any sense of nobility because it was the opposite and we were trying to show the everyman.  What’s going to be interesting obviously is if we are fortunate enough to continue making this series of films, that it will be interesting to see how the responsibility of being King affects Arthur and if he does end, obviously the saying is “heavy is the head that wears the crown” and I am sure and people have asked me a lot over the last couple of weeks as I have been doing Press would you like to be King, and absolutely not.  And I mean, it seems like a thankless job really and there is so much responsibility and so much constraint upon one’s life in royalty like that.  I have really empathized and felt the weight of responsibility of the two young princes in England and it seems like it’s really inhibited their ability just to be free and be kids and make mistakes, because they are under such microscopes.  So I don’t envy that at all.  But I am really excited to, I don’t really know what it would look like channeling the inner King, but I am excited to explore it, again, if we are lucky enough to get it, we are not sure, so I don’t want to get too invested in the hope that we will get to go and make more of these films because it’s up to the audience to decide that.  But, I really hope that we do.  And in terms of Steve McQueen, inevitably we are going to have to endure the weight of comparison, Henri Charriere was a real man and it’s a true story, just like the story of Jesus Christ or Alexander the Great or whatever.  And so we were able to completely liberate ourselves from any sense of this being a remake.  Now of course that is not the way it’s going to be perceived and I have got my eyes wide open, but in terms of the creative process, we felt like we were doing a completely different adaptation in the sensibility of the wonderful Danish filmmaker Michael Noer who directed the film, is so different.  He is a sort of documentary style, very raw sort of like real world filmmaker.  And so again, the sensibility of the film I hope is going to be so different that we can mitigate as much as possible, the endless comparisons, because no one wants to be in a position where they are being compared to Steve McQueen, (laughter) that doesn’t go well for anybody, least of all me.  So I hope that we can sidestep that as much as possible.

Lost City of Z

I shot “King Arthur” and it was an enormous challenge for me, I shot “King Arthur” and then I had eight days and I had to start shooting “The Lost City of Z.” So, yeah, it was a big challenge.  Foremost of course, there was an enormous emotional psychological challenge to be able to understand the sophistication of what James Gray wanted to do with Percy Fawcett, but the initial challenge was a very lofty physical one, because I showed up looking like that, like a 185 pound street fighter, and the day after I wrapped “King Arthur” and I couldn’t justify putting one moments work into “Lost City of Z” or compromising anything because I am a very vigilant one thing at a time type of person, and so I was only concentrating on “King Arthur.” And then the night I wrapped, I didn’t go to the wrap party, I didn’t do anything, I went home, and I started reading “The Lost City of Z” and did my research.  And the next day, I had a meeting with James Gray and where he actually came to a costume fitting so he could talk while I was doing a costume fitting.  And we were talking and everything was going well and he was really impressed with my insight and the way that I was going about exploring the character, and then I took my shirt off and he went white.  (laughter) And he said, we are so fucked.  (laughter) What is this body man?  (laughter) We cannot have Percy Fawcett looking like a UFC fighter.  (laughter) And I said I know, I know, it’s a disaster, but I have a plan. And so my plan was foolproof, I starved myself for ten days.  I ate an avocado a day for ten days, and I lost 17 pounds in those ten days.  So it was an immense physical challenge.  And by the end, as I said, I had finished “King Arthur” at exactly 185 and I finished “The Lost City of Z” at exactly 145.  So I dropped 40 pounds over the course of ten weeks, which was an enormous physical challenge.  But also, I don’t know if you guys have ever had like an injury and had to still go about your life and in a way, it focuses your mind and keeps you very present and it’s exactly the same dieting like that.  It’s such discipline and focus to deny the most fundamental of instincts, which is to feed yourself.  And just to deny that, every minute of every day, creates a wonderful focus and I found it a very positive experience.  And then I had to do it again for “Papillon” and then I finished “Papillon” at 143.  And then I just had a conversation with the director, who had wanted me to star in his film and it was about the IRA Hunger Strikes.  (Laughter)  So I said I can’t, I can’t do it again.  Three times in a row?  I was really fearful of what it would do to my body.  So I just said, my brother, hire someone else, I am sorry, I can’t do it.

Impact on Career

Yes, and I feel as though, yeah, being perceived as somebody that is operating on a currency of aesthetic, as opposed to internal substance, is the thing that I have wanted to try to fight against, my whole career.  And there’s a period of time that I really would make decisions based upon that.  I did “Cold Mountain” and then “Children of Man” and all these films where I tried to make myself into a character actor, I tried to make myself as ugly as possible.  And then I just realized, you know what, that is the way that I look and I know that if I am trying to put as much substance into everything I do as my skill set improves and grows, then hopefully people will recognize that.  And some people will and some people won’t.  Some people are certainly just going to relegate me to being a pretty boy, but what is important is the perception that we have of ourselves and I don’t perceive myself that way.

Choice of Round Table 

Oh wow, that’s a good one!  Well, I would have to have my brothers, my three brothers there.  Listen, it’s Hollywood my brother!  I would throw Guy Ritchie in there to keep it light, and he is also good in a fight Guy, he is a black belt jujitsu, black belt karate, so he is pretty handy to have on the firm.  And then maybe we will throw in Donald Trump again, (laughter) just to keep things light and fun.  (laughter)

Being Germohobe

It makes me very neurotic I will say.  (laughs) I don’t have Herpes and I don’t want Herpes.  (laughter)  The struggle is real.  Yeah, I really just don’t like kissing anyone but my girlfriend, and so I have to just overcome that.  And it’s so funny, everybody, guys will usually come up and go you have the greatest job in the world, you get to kiss pretty girls for a living.  And I am thinking, if only you knew what a weird, neurotic young man I am, because that is the least favorite part of my job.  (laughter) But I mean, I am a germophobe in the sense that it pays dividends to be that way and like I said, I don’t have Herpes and that is for that reason, (laughter) but I am not sort of having a nervous breakdown or refusing to do those things because of it, and it hasn’t progressed to that level.  I mean it may well, in my later years I may get Howard Hughes on it, (laughter) but right now, we have it just under control.

Turning Down 50 Shades of Grey

I see where you are going.  Nice segueway!  (laughter)  No.  Unfortunately I didn’t turn down “50 Shades of Grey,” I accepted it and then realized for a few reasons that I wasn’t able to do it and that is where the catastrophe occurred for me, because I can certainly laugh about it now, but at the time, it was a very traumatic experience for me.  A, I take my word seriously if I say I am going to do something, I want to do it and follow through, and B, I was in an awkward position and not particularly high in the hierarchy, I am not a particularly powerful Hollywood entity.  And so to break a contract with a studio like that was potentially very dangerous for me and there could have been significant consequences for that.  Thankfully, the studio were incredibly generous towards me and understood that I was just in a very difficult period of my life, and I was going through some very hard, emotional things, and I was in conjunction with sort of being in the best period of my life creatively where I was getting all of this opportunity and I was just taking too much on and was afraid that I wasn’t going to be able to do it all justice.  And so I panicked and really panicked and said okay, I have got to let something go here.  And I was attached to “50 Shades of Grey” and “Crimson Peak” with Guillermo.  And I had been attached to “Crimson Peak” for a long time and Guillermo is a friend of mine, and I just said listen, like last in, first out, I have got to honor the agreement that I have made with Guillermo, we have been talking about this for 18 months, and I have been talking about “50 Shades of Grey” for three weeks, that was the obvious choice to let go.  So it was what it was.  But it was a bitter pill for me and the studio to swallow, but I was very grateful for everyone over at Universal, because they were very, very kind to me.

Fear

Fear was a big part of it.  But it wasn’t anything to do with fame.  It was about whether or not I would A, have the time and energy to do what I wanted to do justice, because the way it was sequencing out, I was about to finish season six of “Sons of Anarchy” and I was going to have to, on the last day of that shoot, play a scene where I walk into a kitchen and see that the love of my life has been beaten to death, and be in a devastated, emotional murderous rage of a place.  And then five days later, I was going to start shooting “50 Shades of Grey.” So I thought there’s no way I am going to be able to do a good enough job to just, and on that level of exposure, I have started to feel like this is going to be a catastrophe, exacerbated by the fact that my interpretation of that character was slightly different than what was on the page and I knew that that was going to be a fight, but it was my vision and I was going to be uncompromising in doing that and I didn’t care what anyone had to say and once I get given a character that is my character, and I work with the director of course, but I can only do a good job if I believe what I am doing, and I had a very specific view.  And I realized that I wasn’t going to have the time to work with everybody and to try to convince them that my approach was valid.  And so yeah, I was very fear based.

Legacy of Fathers for their Sons

My father is a colossus in my life.  He was, along with my mom, the two biggest influences in my life.  I always say, my mom taught me to love and my dad taught me to fight and they are both equally important.  He was one of the greatest men that I have ever known and where I was completely inadequate in my life, he excelled.  And I always felt as though I was going to have to take a great journey to be able to fill my father’s shoes and I think that is every son’s desire, to be his father in some regard, or to be as capable as his father.  And I think in many, many ways, I have been playing my father in every character that I have ever played to one degree or another.  I thought about him a lot when I did this film and I thought about him constantly when I did “Sons of Anarchy” and so yeah, he was a giant influence in my life.

Sex Symbol

The sex symbol yeah, absolutely.  Like I said, it’s a visual medium and girls comprise one half of the audience.  And then gay men comprise another ten percent of the audience.  So if you are appealing to 60 percent of the audience, it’s pretty handy.  So yeah, I think there is an enormous benefit to it.  The fear is just that, everyone wants to be taken seriously and I want people to recognize my heart and my work and not my face.  So that is the only downside to it.  And just in terms of the practicality of being an actor in Hollywood, it’s enormously helpful.  And I recognize that and am grateful that people think I am sexy.  And Michael Noer I love, I have been following his career since he did “R.” Hit first and hit hardest.  And then I was an enormous fan of his follow up film “Northwest.” And really he was the reason that I forced myself to overcome my reservations about the inevitable comparisons that we were going to have to endure and the potential folly of remaking such a beloved classic and it was the desire to work with Michael that overcame all that.  I just think he is a sensationally talented filmmaker.  And his style of filmmaking was something that I always wanted to be a part of, that very sort of naturalistic fly on the wall.  He is got an anthropological approach to his filmmaking.  He comes from a world of documentary, where you can’t dictate the narrative in documentary and you have to observe and create an environment, observe and then create your narrative out of the footage you get, and I thought that that was a very exciting process to be involved in.  And then Roland is my pal, I love him and through the collaboration and free form style of Michael Noer’s process as we just discussed, Roland, because of his personality, became a bigger and bigger, as you can imagine, part of the process.  And he was initially playing this small role, but once it gets to the screen, it might be potentially more significant than my role in the film.  So that was always the conflict, as much as I loved him, I was like back off, this is my close-up motherfucker.  (laughs)

Sexiest Man Alive?

Does it come with any other benefits or is it just a title?  (laughter) I thought maybe you were passing me the baton.  (laughter) No, I mean, who knows?  I suppose it’s an honor and listen, I just worked with David Beckham and I know for certain that that’s not the case.  David, that is why we messed him up so much in the film and I walked on set and I said come on, that’s ridiculous, can we just throw a few scars on his face or something?  So I will take it.

Swedish Actor Mikael Persbrandt

I loved him.  I had sort of, I actually recommended him to Michael Noer because there was a moment where Roland was potentially unavailable and I thought Mikael would have done an amazing job.  I loved him and Guy loved him and we were very excited and we were having a lot of conversations about how to incorporate him and make him a much bigger part of the next film if we are lucky enough to make it.  In terms of a wild man, I could see it for sure. (laughter) Like I say, there’s a real currency to physicality and the psychology that goes with it in playing tough guys on screen.  You want the other guy, between action and cut to believe that maybe you could be a danger to him.  And I had some scenes that were very conflict orientated with him and I was giving him my toughest looks, but he wasn’t having none of it.  (Laughter) I really wouldn’t like to tangle with that guy and he seems like a formidable adversary.

Family Life

I was born in Newcastle upon Tyne and I lived there until I was 13 and I lost the accent.  I can do it if you want, I can do the rest of the interview as a Jordy.  That’s not a great accent to try to be a movie star by the way, (laughter) which is why I just sort of pushed that off to the side a little bit.  I grew up in Newcastle, had a lovely childhood, a very economically depressed place, very little opportunity for people, but I grew up in a household full of love and creativity and it was a very lovely childhood and I had one brother to my father and my mom then, when I was 12, met another man and we moved across the country.  And the last day in Newcastle, I had just started High School, I was 13, and it was Valentine’s Day, the last day I left.  And on that day, I had gotten 27 different cards from 27 different girls and a watch and a Walkman and chocolates and flowers, and so I say that like I was a stud, I was killing the game in Newcastle. (laughter) And then I went to the Lake District, and everyone hated me, like bar none.  And I was immature and hadn’t developed any real great people skills at that point, and so rather than try to convince them that I was actually quite likable, I just met them and their resentment.  And so, I ended up having very, very few friends in my teenage years and I lived in a rural place.  And so what that meant was that I spent most of my teenage years alone.  And although at the time that was very painful, what I immensely benefitted from was that I had this period of incubation and isolation to fantasize and dream about what I wanted my life to be.  And I also coupled that with the fact that I retreated to film and film became my best friend.  And those two things merged and this dream that I had about being an actor as a young boy, became the thing that kept me alive, that I just needed to make it to 17, where I could leave home and go and pursue my dream, and that is really what sustained me through those dark years.  And so again, it was brutal at the time, but I look back in hindsight and was so grateful for the period of incubation and time to dream.  Thank you Lake District, you bastards.  (laughter)

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